Maybe it is just beginniner's jitters, but I am starting to think that I am not really meant to be a teacher. It is scary to think that I am unable to be myself in this profession. Everything I do has to be an act because they would fire me if I did what I wanted to. I wonder if there is a profession that I can actually be myself.
I think it keeps happening to me. I have to pretend to be someone else in a job or a class and then I end up confused about identity and missing the old days. I haven't been able to act like myself in a group since I left Mount A. I think I get worn out with the acting...
I have developed a hate for the history textbook. It is useless and choppy....confusing even. UGH!!!
In other news, my thyroid is not functioning properly. The doctor says that will explain how I have been feeling tired and sluggish. I have to go back for more blood tests before he puts me on meds just in case they made a lab error.
I think it keeps happening to me. I have to pretend to be someone else in a job or a class and then I end up confused about identity and missing the old days. I haven't been able to act like myself in a group since I left Mount A. I think I get worn out with the acting...
I have developed a hate for the history textbook. It is useless and choppy....confusing even. UGH!!!
In other news, my thyroid is not functioning properly. The doctor says that will explain how I have been feeling tired and sluggish. I have to go back for more blood tests before he puts me on meds just in case they made a lab error.
posted by Jenn @ 7:02 AM
1 Comments:
At 7:25 AM,
Unknown said…
I hope your medical stuff goes well and that you're healthy soon.
So far as the jitters go, I'm sure that you'll get into the swing of things. I know a lot of people who really aren't cut out to be teachers, but you, I don't think, are one of those people. I would have liked to have someone like you as a teacher when I was in school, I think. :)
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